Why?

I have so many mixed emotions. It's not even funny.

I had a really fun night. Derek, Zach, Jill, Elise, Jim, Tyler, Hayley, Evan, and I all hung out with Sarah at her house. We had many laughs.

So why am I in a sour mood right now? What possible reason do I have for this?

I'm just never satisfied. Why can't things be better?

Why can't I please everyone? It's getting to the point where I don't want to even try because I know I'll fail. But I feel like I'm the only one making an effort.

Why are my emotions running rampant? Why do I unleash them all at once when someone says the wrong thing? What's going on with me?

I don't even know. I don't know what's real. I don't know what I'm talking about. I just want to have fun. I want to live in the moment.

Why do others have things I don't? Why can't things be perfect?

What am I talking about? Am I just crazy?

I'm putting things off.

I don't want to grow up.

I don't want to leave.

But I want to get the hell out of here.

I'm so confused. All the time. Nothing makes sense.

If anyone reads this, they're probably scared or concerned. Or am I just kidding myself?

What's going on?

I don't even know.

Never mind, that is all.

Songs of the Day:
The Way She Moves - Forever the Sickest Kids
Swim - Jack's Mannequin
Broken Heart - Motion City Soundtrack
Don't Let Them See You Cry - Manchester Orchestra
That's What You Get - Paramore